Yesterday was kindergarten roundup for Henry. My last boy will be heading to school in the fall. This past week I felt that I was going to be okay with it all.  I’d been focusing on all the positives that were ahead, trying to ignore the heavy, tugging feeling at my heart. As we walked up to the school, Henry at my side, I felt him begin to walk slower and quietly grab my hand.  That’s all it took.  The tugging I’d been trying to ignore all week welled up in my heart and brought tears to my eyes.  <Sigh>  I looked down at him and smiled through my tears, he smiled back, hugged my arm and we headed into the school.

He was quiet and reserved, so unlike him, I knew he must be nervous.  We hung up his coat and found his seat.  He sat down to work on his coloring sheet and told me good-bye.  I felt the tears welling again and walked out of the room as quickly as I could.

Walking home I remembered a conversation Bret and I had the summer of 2006.  Henry was only 5 months old and with 3 kids age 4 and under I was feeling overwhelmed, tired and stressed. I had made some statement about never having time for myself and in response Bret said not to worry, in 5 more years I would have entire days when all the kids were in school. I remember sighing, feeling like 5 years was an eternity.

But here I am.

Five years later I’m taking Henry to kindergarten roundup and not looking forward to the time on my own, not like I thought I would.  I know it will get better, that I’ll find plenty to do to fill my days, not being one to sit still for long. I’m just glad I have 5 more months to get used to the idea.

When Henry came home, two hours later, he asked if we could make a snack.  I thought it would be fun to make a recipe I’d been playing around with, so I suggested that and he agreed.

Honey Nut Bars

3 cups Cheerios

1/2 cup whole cane sugar

1/2 cup honey

1/2 cup peanut butter (creamy or crunchy)

1/2 cup chopped peanuts

In a small saucepan mix together honey and sugar, bring to a boil. Take off heat and add peanut butter and chopped nuts, stir til well combined.  Pour over cheerios and mix well.  Place in 8×8 dish and allow to cool.

As we worked away at making the bars and then cleaning up Henry shared his morning.  I loved hearing about everything he did, how much fun he’d had. When I asked him if he liked it he said, “I did, but for now I still like preschool.”  Glad to know he’s not in a hurry.

Happy Weekend!




13 Responses to Honey Nut Bars

  1. Tara says:

    Great post. I’ll miss the days next fall when there isn’t a little Bickel boy bringing his excitement to preschool. However, I am happy that I get to keep him for one more year of Sunday School. And I’m grateful that my little boy isn’t 5 months old yet… and that I have 5 years before he starts kindergarten. I’m definitely treasuring my days when I get him all to myself. :)

  2. Wendy says:

    Oh boy….did I have to explain myself when all three kiddos turned around and saw me crying looking at my computer. :) How true, how true this post is!! And, I do still have one at home…starting preschool next year, but how fast the time flies, how often we feel overwhelmed…how much we love and treasure the reason for the overwhelming. Love you, Alison….and looking forward to the greatness that will come from the few hours you will have during the day next fall. No doubt you will find ways to benefit your boys greatly!

  3. What an easy, tasty, and healthy treat. These must have been eaten up quickly. I hope you’ll come by and link them up to Sweets for a Saturday #10.

  4. steve says:

    You know you could make them for your favorite Dad

  5. michelle says:

    I can see from your photos why it would be hard to not have anybody at
    home with you. If you ever need someone to have coffee with I only work 2 nights
    of the week. Always happy to visit with friends.

  6. Maria Hendrickson says:

    Sweet post. I am in the same place as you with my last baby girl in 1/2 day kindergarten…next year will bring many changes and I am trying to make the most of the time we have. We will make these bars this week!

  7. grub says:

    hi Alison! first time for me commenting on your recently found blog! recently i’ve been looking for simple peanut recipes and i’m sure making these and your peanut pancakes this weekend 😀 your photos are really lovely and i hope to see more in the future :)

    by the way, i’m not sure if you do these things but, i have given you a blog award, please come to my blog and claim it if you have time.

  8. juli says:

    just found your site today through the creative mama and am so happy i did! i am a mama to 3 boys as well so any time i hear of another mama to 3 boys i am instantly interested plus i love photography, however i’m not so great in the kitchen:) this post particularly resonated with me as i just had kindergarten round up last week with my last little guy and was totally trying to hold back the tears. i too kept telling myself i still had 4 more months with him at home but boy when august comes i know i will be a mess! glad i found your site…bookmarking:)

    • Alison says:

      Juli–Thanks for taking the time to visit! I am trying to soak up every moment with this last boy at home. Thank goodness we have 4 more months to enjoy this precious time!

  9. Jill says:

    You are breaking my heart! I have 2 toddlers home with me and know the feeling of just wanting a moment to myself. I also know how much I will miss them when they go off to school.

  10. Katie says:

    Hi Alison,

    This is Katie from the Cheerios Facebook team. I love your post describing the emotions of sending your last child off to school and how you came together at the end of the day with a homemade recipe. We would love to share a link to your post on our Cheerios Facebook page! Do we have your permission to do that? Either way, I love your photography and I really enjoyed reading your post.


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